Do you know that time at the beginning of new relationship when everything is new and you’re slowly getting to know each other? You’re figuring out how you want to share your time together. What often happens at this stage is one person wants the other more. The desire is strong and you’re not sure whether the other person is able to take it, or if he or she will run away.
I’m sure everyone experiences this tender period, when the desires are strong and patience necessary. We can choose to manipulate the other person to make them want us. And sometimes we’ll be successful, but it will never be pure love anymore or fulfilling for us.
We’re like a moon flower opening only under the light of a full moon. When the light touches the flower she can trust that this is the right moment to open and blossom in a very tender and special way. She is waiting for this moment and it’s impossible to fake or manipulate her to open quicker.
When two people get together it’s like two special flowers, each has their own time when it’s possible to open and blossom. And sometimes it takes a fucking long time and the other is already getting crazy or thinking it will never happen.
I want to talk about a longing that you may also experience. I have just discovered this feeling. While not knowing exactly what I can expect from the person I like, the desire to manipulate the situation is there.
But when I overcome the temptation to manipulate the person and their feelings and have trust that everything is perfect as it is, then I enter a place of ‘heart longing’. It’s about simply waiting for this beautiful flower to open to me, not trying to open it.
It can be a very difficult feeling when I want someone and he is not sure if he is ready to open too. When I say ‘open’ I mean the kind of vulnerable and sensitive intimate space where I would like to meet him. I did not understand why it happened so many times to me, until I understood that god blessed me to be able to feel strong desire for men, for love, for intimacy.
This state of heart longing is like a moment of inspiration for me. I can use the clarity of my mind in a creative way, which gives me boundless possibilities. The soul knows exactly what the body needs because this is a moment of perfect connection between all aspects of your being. This feeling may only last for a couple of minutes, but time doesn’t matter here. And it doesn’t mater if we get what we want, what’s important is to transmit the desire into heart longing, the universal love that has no conditions.
What I mean is that we should not put any expectations onto the subject of our desire, because we don’t want to kill the flower that inspired us. But definitely we need to have many subjects of the desire to move us forward.
At least, I do! Thank you my sweet men!
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